Last Christmas I was feeling really lost. I didn't know what I was doing or where my life was going, but more than that, I couldn't understand with all the things that had happened in the past year, why it really mattered. So I was searching. And searching for me tends to take me to people and places where I feel grounded.
Halloween in Seattle with Jessica,
Thanksgiving in Rexburg...
So, as usual, my confusion and sadness were sorted out with printmaking. With hard labor in the lab. With all the variables and the comings and goings in my life, Printmaking remains a control. The constant.
So I just started cutting. I didn't know why, but I felt impressed to cut out these fish. I sat there for hours and hours and cut out fish after fish. Then I went back and used a hole punch to make their eyes. Anyone who came into the lab that wasn't working was enlisted to fish cutting. After I gave a proper fish cutting demo, of course.
What came from my lost state were three pieces. I had never monoprinted until then, but it was the perfect way to express myself. More than 400 paper fish helped me to express my feelings, and my desire to be found, grounded, important, and acknowledged. In my work, in my family, by my God, and in my life in general.
I don't have an image of the first 2, they were almost immediately bought by the school, which was a real blessing, but I have the third. It's called Miracle Fish, and it's become available as a print through the Working Proof.
About the print:
The original Miracle Fish artwork was created as a monotype, and was printed using nearly 400 paper fish that were cut out by hand. The idea behind the piece is that we each count. No matter what, someone cut each of us out, and whether we are in the background or the forefront, we individually matter. Sometimes we get lost, but no matter what, the value of the fact that you ARE, and that you somehow CAME TO BE, matters. Find yourself and make it count.
Doing this work, during that hard time, truly helped me to find myself. In fact, after I pulled the first print from the first plate, I had a breakthrough and per usual, I teared up. But what's more, I was doing the work I felt impressed to do, and I found the answers I was searching for in them.
The print available through The Working Proof "is a digital print on acid free, Neenah uncoated matte 100lb cover paper that is 80% recycled. It was digitally signed by the artist and was numbered by The Working Proof."
There are only 50 available, and they seem to be flying. So let Miracle Fish be a reminder to you that you count, and your life matters in any state or stage, or help remind someone you love of the same fact. Or just an addition to your art collection, because you like it, or it holds a special meaning to you. OR you just like having a little piece of me in your house....
And to add to the love fest, The Working Proof donates 15% of the cost to the charity of my choice, and I've chosen Farm Sanctuary.