It's late, so I will be brief, but most of you will read this in the morning... so I hope it warms your hearts to see me alive and kicking in your google readers.
March was fantastic. I feel enlightened.
There were lots of pros and a few cons.
Here are the cons:
- The first week, I seriously had withdrawal. I self induced the obliteration of my attention span from years and years of overly frequent/ obsessive computer use. I think anyone who has lost
their cellphone, been abroad, or gone into the wilderness knows what I
am talking about. Serious technology withdrawal. I kept reaching for my laptop and slapping my own hand. I eventually started hiding my laptop, and it worked.
- I did relapse a few days. Almost lost a couple hours to youtube. That was a rough day. Damn you kittens!
- I realized that I don't really have friends in Texas anymore. It's just me, my Mom, Finn, Pine, and Mick, and that tweeting and being on the computer kept me connected in a social way that I missed.
- That made me feel a little pathetic when I realized that that was true.
Here are the pros:
- I gained back some of my attention span!
- I successfully changed my email habit from every 40 seconds to 4 times a day.
- I never watched live tv. Only recorded things, and I was working while they were on.
- I kept watching Netflix throughout the month, because I can't really work without a movie playing. And I decided I am totally ok with that. It helps me stay on track.
- I got a bike, and shed some of my woe is me weight, literally and figuratively
- I submitted a fox piece and was excepted into the 5th issue of Uppercase magazine!
- I have started working on a new secret project that is going to blow your minds, and it has a really super tight deadline, and it has everything to do with Castle Peeps
- I designed 1.5 lines of new fabric
- I read a lot of Steinbeck
- I taught the two Sister Missionaries in my ward to quilt!
- I kept a journal
- I gave myself permission to move on with my life
- I realized where I am going
- and lots and lots and lots of other things.
I feel like March was a blessing in my life. I remember why I started it, to be a more Olympic me, but the finish is so much greater than the start. I had an idea of what I might gain, but there was no real clear point a to point b.
There are a lot of things that I have wanted to do, things that I was planning on doing, but I just wasn't. I don't know what exactly I was waiting for... but I thought a lot about the advice that I give people on a very very regular basis:
Make whatever you want happen.
You are capable of anything and everything.
There is no limit to what you can do, if you decide it is important enough to do.
Well, what the hell was I doing about it? It's like I needed someone to give me permission to move forward. Well, if I was waiting for permission I got it... like a good kick in the pants; I got it.
I believe that we are led to do the things that we do. We all have paths. I know that there is a God who loves us and truly wants the very very very best for each of us. I feel like I've been really lost, and I feel like in that I felt like I was alone. Just left to manage. Well, once I took the time to take the time to shut up and shut everything off; that's when the answers came. That's when the fabric designs came, that's when the new projects came, and that's when the desire to be better all the time came.
The most amazing thing, the thing that brings me to tears is I wasn't just getting ideas for myself, I was getting inspiration for my peeps too. So not always, but maybe sometimes, if you aren't listening or can't hear, someone else will be, and they can share with you.
That was March. I'm in a new place! April is going to be a little crazy getting ready for Market, and my SCHOOL HOUSE. I'll talk more about that later.
Two new things to the old blog-a-roo (which by the way was 3 years old mid-march).
1. 2 posts a week (that's my goal anyway)
2. a third post on Friday called: "my favorite thing" which will essentially be whatever I deem my favorite thing from Friday to Friday. Be it shoes, a tweet, a new recipe... you name it... it's probably my favorite.
Ok. So if you get a chance. Do a media detox. Or just create the chance. There are so many things waiting for you.
oh and ps. my hair has gotten really long (for me).. also, this was not brief. It turned into something else...