I just need a hug.

 

San Francisco was great, and the weather was perfect. I was worried about leaving right in the middle of things (finishing my BFA project), but I was pleasantly surprised at the good it did me. It was really good to not have to be in charge of my life for a couple of days... I just let my professors worry about things... cheers to that! I made a great new friend! Also, It was so good to see sooo many beautiful things. It's like refilling your proverbial lamp of images and creativity, and what have you. So many good fabric ideas!!! There always seem to be a lot of tourist in San Francisco.... kind of like Paris in June. I want to say that I am grateful to the peeps of San Fran for graciously sharing their city with everyone, all the time. I have pics and an illustrated journal, both of which I will share in the near future.

my current status.

i've been under a lot of stress lately... BFA, graduating, moving, working, having to get a life... all that business and it really does wear on you. I try and just deal with things one day at a time, hour by hour... but I really feel like I have been doing a commendable job at not freaking out, and remembering to eat. But it gets to the end of the day, and I am just tired all over. Printmaking is a very physical/ labor intensive form of art. So here's the deal. I'm not a very touchy feely person... I'm only an arm toucher, but I don't really give hugs... i don't know why I would receive them... but I really feel like a hug would make me feel better. Like I actually need one, or even more than one if needs be. A crazy tight, pop your back, make you safe again, hug. After not being hugged for a while... I think I might feel a little empty? Is that weird? does anyone know what I'm talking about? I feel like a good hug might be a cure all at this time.

I also need a good haircut. That would probably solve problems too.

I just forget sometimes, that I am not an island.