blue.

school started yesterday, and it feels like its been going for weeks. I don't know why, but I am so stressed out! I can't seem to shake it. I've been pretty uptight, and easily rattled, and that's not so normal. I always care, but I am generally a bit easier going. I can't seem to figure out what my problem is? I felt sheepish today. But I did notice that the way that I walk when I am outside is so tense, hunched over with my shoulders raised. I think it is a natural response to the cold, but I think that some how that stance is informing my whole self that I am tense and or stressed. Beyond that, I do feel a little overwhelmed right now. I need some blue sky.

but some how, by some miracle of miracles on days like this my dear friend Mindy's letters arrive. It is always so uplifting to hear from her, as she is: 1. One of my dearest friends, 2. One of the most loving, positive, humble people I have ever known. It is so nice, because it's on a night like this that I would want to talk to her more than anything, and I have the closest possible thing, a letter from her. She also sent me a beautiful notebook! It is actually by an artist out of Korea named Youk, Sim Won. Her work is so beautiful, and the website is fairly navigatable seeing as how most of it is in Korean. Still the images are wonderful. I would love to get one of her passport covers.

I devised a plan for writing, I thought it would help me to be more constant, and it has, actually. I made a book that we send back and forth. I write then she writes, and it moves from Idaho to Korea on about a bi-monthly basis. It's fun to see it again and to have her in it.

   

better days to be had i am sure.