The strangest thing happened the other day, I'm still not certain how. At work we received a notice that an orchestra would be performing in our lobby for a short concert, and we were all invited to attend. At times my mind is running at about 100 miles per hour. In the space of a few short seconds, these are the thoughts that ran through my mind...
- Orchestra - there will be cello players
- Cello players - Melissa (my daughter)
- I miss Melissa
- I miss Melissa playing her cello
- If I go to that concert and see any cello players I'll start to cry, because I miss Melissa so much
- I can't go to that concert, if those orchestra members see someone crying maybe they will think I don't like their music
- My friends asked if I was going to the concert, I said that I couldn't, and I started to cry.
How crazy is that? I miss my children EVERY day. Melissa has been gone since June, Ashlee and Lizzy years longer, and Luke two years before that. I believe we put on armor everyday, just to get by, and survive. But somehow, thinking about my sweet girl, playing her cello with such concentration & passion got to me, these thoughts got past all of the carefully applied protective layers. Watching Melissa play her cello is a joy to behold - she has long, thin fingers that remind me of spiders in the very best way. She never takes that as much of a compliment, but I think spiders & their webs are beautiful...the ultimate knitters!
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Such a beautiful post Cherri! I’m amazed to hear about another talented child of yours. That must be a thrill. And I can imagine you miss them like crazy. A good cry every now and then won’t hurt anybody. Classical music and the cello touches a chord in many hearts. Take care!
Posted by: nicolette | March 04, 2008 at 09:22 AM
Cherri--you have such a lovely family. I can tell that you're proud of each one. I say go ahead & have a good cry, never mind what anyone else thinks. It is a gift to love so deeply.
Joan
Posted by: Joan | March 04, 2008 at 09:26 AM
Your girls are so talented.
Posted by: Nanette | March 04, 2008 at 12:22 PM
Awww, a big cyber-hug to you. Isn't it weird, how the oddest things will make us get all teary-eyed? And YES to what Joan said!
Posted by: Thimbleanna | March 04, 2008 at 02:19 PM
Hi!
Im Tamara and thank you for the welcome!! :)
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Posted by: Tamara | March 04, 2008 at 04:22 PM